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Stab me if you must, but I like Spongecola's version of Pare Ko better than the original one by the Eraserheads.

Naku po. Pangalawang araw na namin 'tong walang kasama. Mababaliw na ata ako. Aaminin ko na. Wala akong alam sa mga gawaing-bahay, maliban na lang siguro sa paghugas ng pinggan, pagwalis, paglinis ng tae ng aso, konting paglalaba at pag-microwave ng ulam. 'Ni hindi ako marunong mag-prito ng itlog, o magbukas ng gas. Ultimong pagsaing ay ignorante ako. (Wala naman kasi kaming rice cooker.) Nakakahiya, alam ko. May mga bata na labindalawang taong gulang palang, pero mas marami pa atang alam na gawaing-bahay kaysa sa akin.

Prinsesa na kung prinsesa. Spoiled brat na kung spoiled brat. Hindi naman kami pinalaki ng mga magulang namin na nakukuha lahat ng gusto, o nakakalampas sa mga maling gawain nang hindi pinapagalitan o pinapangaralan. Lumaki nga kami sa palo e. 'Yun nga lang, lumaki din kami nang parating may kasama sa bahay. 'Di talaga kami halos tinuturuan ng magulang namin. Sinabi naman kasi ng nanay ko na natutunan siya magluto nu'ng nag-asawa na siya, kaya sabi niya matututo rin kami kapag nag-asawa na kami.

Ngunit dahil dito, parang takot ako sa responsibilidad.

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Biglang nawala lahat ng gusto kong sabihin.

SHIET MAN MAY FORMER CO-APP AKO SA AME NA INAALOK AKO NG DNANGEL VOLUME 9 SCANLATIONS PERO POWTEK DI KO SIYA KILALA. SABI KO BIGAY NA LANG NIYA KAY ALEX AYAW NIYA. SHIET NA MAKGKIET. DI KO NAMAN MASABING DI KO SIYA KILALA KASI KAUSAP KO SA Y!M. SHIET MAN. SHIET DIN KASI AKALA PA NIYA MAG-AAPPLY PA AKO ULET.

I registered at BM a few weeks ago and I found the forum extremely boring. It's not because [sarcasm] I JUST LOVE JEANIE-UNNIE TO BITS AND I'LL KISS HER ASS WHENEVER SHE WANTS ME TO[/sarcasm]. The forum really is boring. Even the semi-brainless perverted fanboys at DAIForum give me more entertainment.

Not to mention the very, uhm, unique layout. They changed the layout a few days ago, and it's still VERY unique.

I'm suddenly feeling the urge to blog at Tabulas more often. For now, maybe, because I'm waiting for more votes on my new layout. (If you haven't voted yet, go DO THE VOTE! @ {http://livejournal.com/~kikiam})

Anyway, all I've really got to say is that BahaghariORG, my sister's domain might be put under new management, which means, BahaghariORG might become mine. I personally think my sister isn't putting her money to good use. The domain just contains an index page and her blog. As for me, I can't promise that I'll make it more active, but a domain would be nice for me to practice PHP on, especially during the sem break.

She's still thinking on whether she'll sell it to me. I plan to pay her by monthly installment. I hope she will. Originally, bahaghariORG was L-PNetII, because the three of us got tired of the domain name. By the time we were supposed to purchase a new one, only my sister had money, and both Aoi and I were on a web-designing hiatus. The name bahaghariORG, was well... sort of my idea. That's why I want it badly.

Right now, I really want liquid-skiesNET or arueORG, but I'm fine if she'll sell bahaghariORG to me.

It's about time that updated this thing.

The DSL connection went down last night. Then I just couldn't seem to fix the PC. Everytime I turn it on, nothing appears. I went into real panic mode last night. Did I just toast our DSL modem? What was wrong with the PC? Is it a hardware error or a software error?

(I seriously think it's a hardware error. The monitor light doesn't turn green when the power's on. Apparently, it doesn't receive anything from the CPU. Wait, it shouldn't be called the CPU, but I don't know how else I should call it. Please. Don't make me buy a new hard disk. PLEASE.)

Obviously, the DSL's fine now because I get to post this entry. ^^ Texting her last night somewhat calmed me down.

As for the other problem, I'm waiting for Mashiba to wake up so he can help fix it or we can bring it to Gilmore. (Thank goodness it's Pasig Day. He doesn't have to go to the office.) I hope it's ready by July 8. That's when I'll get a licensed copy of Visual Studio .NET from the department. I was hoping to install it in that PC because it has a faster processor AND it will have been newly-reformatted. Visual Studio .NET takes up 4GB on the HD. I'll also have to install the R-Language for Stat130 and good ol' Java for my other CS courses.

I'm teaching someone over MSN how to count in Tagalog. I'm so farking cool. Well, it's because she taught me how to count in Japanese yesterday. I just realized that counting in Tagalog actually follows a pattern. -_-;

...doesn't seem to be anything much.

I tried to think of things to drama-blog about for 2004 but I can't. In theory, this is supposed to be a big year because I turned 18. What my eighteenth birthday led to was, well, the deterioration of my hearing. The mp3 player my parents gave me barely got off my ears. -.-

Well, I guess my grandfather's death would be the greatest event of 2004. I'm a bad grandchild and I think my dad and his siblings are bad children for bickering over money. -.- I didn't see my cousins at my father's side this year. There was no longer a gathering since Lolo's dead. My dad couldn't stand his older sister's greed for money. It's a really long story. Let's just say that my dad and his two other surviving siblings hate their older sis. It's pretty bad. I'd really hate to see the four of us sibs ditching each other for the holidays.

Another big event is my brother announcing and breaking an engagement. He finally proposed to his girlfriend who's been with him for 8 years last June. Then just this December, he broke the engagement AND the relationship. Even we, his immediate family, don't know exactly why. It's become as studied as a scientific phenomenon. -.- Well, at least he bought a PS2.

As for me, well, there was this realization that I can do things I never thought I couldn't. Becoming a college scholar was something I never imagined. I thought I can only just pass my subjects in UP, but with hard work and a tad bit of luck, I can actually pass with flying colors. I doubt that I can do it again, though, and especially not this sem. (I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT TO DO WITH THAT FOOKIN' MP. Anyone who has an algorithm on how to evaluate postfix expressions? -.-)

Now I remember something that turning 18 did to me. I realized that I have Peter Pan's syndrome. Pwah. I'm scared of growing older. And now that I'm turning 19 in six months, I feel really scared. I want to do something out of the ordinary before I leave my teenage years, like sing onstage or something. Maybe I'll practice singing more this year. Yeah, right!

Oh and all those debut parties I attended and turned down.

And Gai leaving for Canada.

I hope 2005 will be a much better year for everyone. The disasters in Luzon and in Asia are creeping me out.

New Year's Resolutions:
- Cut classes only once in two weeks. (especially Phys72 and Philo1)
- Lose weight. So my parents and my older siblings would stop nagging me about my extra weight. WHAT IS SO WRONG WITH ME ANYWAY?
- Do something about my posture, for the same reason as above.
- Blog here.
- Learn more Japanese and Korean. (: Being multilingual is fun.
- Improve my deteriorating English. Read more books.
- Listen to more OPM.
- Totally forsake American music.
- Watch less WWE. It can ruin your life. Take it from me.
- NOT TO FAIL OR DROP ANY COURSE. (And here I am sitting in front of the PC instead of working on my MP and studying for three exams.)
- Save money and buy original CD's.
- Watch more anime. 2004 was really a bad year for me in terms of anime. The only new anime I added to my favorites list was Naruto. Anime is something I don't want to outgrow.
- Practice drawing.
- Update sites. TDT, 3b and CCD.
- Finish an RPG. FFX-2, here I come!

So it is a big year after all. BUt I'm watching out for better things in the coming year.
- Mashiba and Kei graduating from college and high school, respectively. I hope Kei passes the UPCAT. Minna, wish her luck!
- The renovation of our house. Kei and I would be getting a new room. We'll be having it painted white and orange.
- My third year in college. The first half of the struggle would hopefully be over. I just want college to end. It's just so... lonely.
- DBSK promoting in Japan for the first half of the year. Let's hope they do something about that flopped first single.
- GMA Filipinos doing something about the country's problem. It's not that I'm not a GMA fan but the pinch that our country's in can't be entirely blamed on her and the government, right?

2005 would probably bring more changes. If Mashiba gets into Moog, he'll be working in Baguio. That means one less person in the house. Kei would also be going to college. That would still be a big chage, regardless of which university she goes to.

X-posted at Signal; 360°